I lit some candles on my nightstand, silhouette I put some roses and crystals on my bed I let the shower run the bathroom filled with steam I put my music on, baby let me set the scene I let the water run on my chest and on my face I take my time, cause I ain’t gotta be no place I feel the moon and feel the heat and feel the need the tension strong enough to bring me down to my knees do you know where I go when I’m all alone? do you know what I do? I don’t think of you I think I me I think of me in my bedroom issa galaxy, follow me we got no fear, stars aligning here whisper in my ear touch me feel the waterfalls, let it soak all of your dreams grow reality like you proud of me 
touch me like you proud of me like you proud of me touch me like you proud of me like you proud of me touch me like you proud of me like you proud of me touch me like you proud of me like you proud of me

wait start it over... Right about, right about now I could go for you on my tongue you’re the only one I want to be tasting right now fucking right now I know our love lucked out… but is it too late right now to come pick you up I really just miss how we fuck, come pick you up legs around my shoulders, picking you up can I come pick you up, come lick you up can I come pick you up, come pick you up I know that you worried about who I’m fucking but them other girls can’t love me the way you be loving me neck in ya hands, ass in your grasp I go crazy for that, go crazy for that shit I only want to fuck you only want you to come through I only wanna love you even though I don’t love you really just want you here, really just want you close really wanna hold you down but not hold you down do you know what I mean are you fucking her like you fucked me? When you fucking her do you think of me? are you fucking her like you fucked me? do you think of us when ya’ll fucking? can I come through through through wanna fuck you you you just wanna fuck you you you I want to get nasty, want to get real real nasty wanna get.. Look in my, look in my eyes eyes tell me you don’t miss fucking me tell me you don’t miss kissing me I know that we toxic but I know you still be missing me thinkin bout do it in the bathroom backseat bedroom living room it don’t even matter I just want you close like skin to skin I’m tryna get real real intimate I’m trying to… give you that look I’m trying to follow up with the action I know, I am supposed to be leaving you back in the past and I know I know you be checking out all my shit I know that you missing the way I did it eat you like it’s my last meal eat you like it’s my first kiss on you like I need you loving you know it hurts I can’t even say love cause really it was infatuation I’m so infatuated girl you got me frustrated undressing you in my head imagine you in my bed I know that shit went left but can we make it right one night one time

It’s a, it’s a feeling… 3 AM isn’t just a time it’s a feeling 3 AM is the perfect time for… feeling feeling oh I’m stuck in a loop hole stuck in a time zone where I wear no clothes your finger so close your lips be so close baby you spot on you kiss my spot I’m on im gone for you what you wanna do girl get comfortable myself I’m finna lose all in you what you wanna do in this bed girl you’ve been so deep in my head tryna fuck you good in this bed tryna fuck you good in this bed this wasn’t supposed to be sex we wasn’t supposed to be fuckin we were just supposed to fix our problems maybe we could solvem if you… spend some time out my crib girl get up and pack your shit you finna dip I don’t care if you gotta call a Lyft,call Uber I’m super Duper over this and… then you call my phone when you all alone at 3 AM all up in your feelins at 3 AM perfect time to be feelin those feelins but is the worst time to be feeling like this it’s the worst time to be feeling like this like this like this its the worst time to be telling me your feelings cause I’m over it I’m over it I wanna put this love in a box bury that shit deep down don’t ever wanna see your face again girl don’t ever come back around This aint… This ain’t coming back around I told God i’m done with you my higher self does not approve of this shit! my higher self does not approve of this shit… my higher self does not approve of this shit This shit This shit This shit this is some bullshit some bullshit at 3 AM at 3 AM imma feel this shit feel this shit at 3 AM imma drop this shit I hope you hear this shit fuck you fuck this fuck you man fuck this at 3 AM 3 AM

I believe i you like i believe the sun will come back in the rising I believe in you like i believe In divine timing And baby you are proof of just that how i end up here wya I think issa sign if you wanna be mine Babygirl true let’s do that Let’s do that Baby let’s fly Wings out spreadin both sides Never felt this in ya life Im alive She said : What’s the point of it all Why you wanna get to know me I’m good on my own Heard whatchu said ain’t gotta show me Don’t wanna keep it goin I know you in ya bag But i been down this road before And everytime i then crashed She really feel a way Cause nobody ever fought for her She ain’t never felt somebody really give they all for her Niggas always fuckin up dumb look on They face Never comin back apologizing when they make mistakes And she then had to forgive more times than she’ll admit Cause her ego can’t believe all of the shit she dealt w She get a pain in her tummy when she think of her ex Cause they know she irreplaceable but watched as she left That shit still fw her head She still don’t understand So when i tell that i love her She don’t know how i can She said Imma just dip Cause this shit for the birds But really hopin I’ll grab her And fly w her til it hurts I get it i get it Shawdy i get it do But when you ready know my nest got enough room for two I know you think about me But scared cause you doubt me You wanna show me thatchu really doin fine without me Well girl i got the message but i read between the lines Wanna put me out ya heart cause you’re scared of what I’ll find Really you just convinced you you ain’t worthy of love So you pushin me away cause feel that it’s just You don’t believe when i look at you i see true beauty How could you be w me and gain what ya whole life you been losing I guess that makes sense heart been under attack So you stay on defense So long now it’s offense Well girl i mean no offense But i ain’t like them niggas you been w I believe in you

V1: Is it okay ? If i love that’s a question for myself Is it okay that i want you Again it’s rhetorical Cause yes , It’s more than okay and that’s the test am i ready for a day When happiness is .. the norm How do you take sunlight After years of storms oh youuu ... you w your romance and your passion unwavering glitter that flickers in a room that’s never seen the moon the stars a fuse Ohs Yes’s

It ain’t even that i miss you I’m good on my own Plus I’m tryna get my shit together baby we grown I ain’t tryna test the waters now i know what i know My intuition did me different tryna live by my soul And by myself in my own thoughts now i can say The only thing holding me to you is i still feel the shame I couldn’t look you in ya eyes when we was fuckin i pray That you ain’t thinkin i was bitchin i just didn’t feel safe If i could ask you one question it would be something for my ego cause that’s all i seem to need to feel good bout the situation cool off you but i feel that conversation ain’t what god want me to do So i gotta make my own closure Cause tellin you my side ain’t gon bring me closure To sanity But if you hear this song it’s My confession In case you had some questions and was guessing It ain’t even that i miss you I’m good on my own Plus I’m tryna get my shit together baby we grown I ain’t tryna test the waters now i know what i know My intuition did me different tryna live by my soul And by myself in my own thoughts now i can say The only thing holding me to you is i still feel the shame I couldn’t look you in ya eyes when we was fuckin i pray That you ain’t thinkin i was bitchin i just didn’t feel safe From the rip i felt like you was rejecting me Sexually i try to kiss you move from next to me I aint know if you was playin or you wanted to control I start internalizing shit i was too afraid to know Thought it was me but i didn’t wanna ask and trigger you I know you got some trauma and i figured you didn’t need me adding to the problem so i stayed quiet ... received good sex but wasn’t able to give i didn’t know how to love you and i guess i should’ve asked but i didn’t I’m honesty more ashamed now and that’s why i be thinkin if hittin it one more time Or atleast askin you from your perspective what it was like ... Was you thinkin about it like me ? Or did shit seem fine ? The lines between just being a good lover and pritoizinf my pleasure above others got so blurred I heard you fuckin other women and tbh it kills me thinking they fuck you better When you only got half my potential Sex shouldn’t be a mental battle but because of societies stupid labels i was never able to adjust to studs who wanna be submissive and fems who wanna be dominant it’s not a compliment to me when you say you just wanna please me Cause it pleases me to please you But if i make you uncomfortable ... how can i ever be comfortable fucking you , making love to you ... i left feeling so unsatisfied Don’t get me wrong ya head gave me butterflies and kept me up at night But what about you ? I felt so disconnected ... i wanted to hold kiss and touch on your body more but i didn’t know places i was allowed to ... I know my head game is not to be played w ... You know that too ... so what was it ? Regardless ... i was always afraid ... so i guess partially it was me . And my trauma ? Maybe i should direct this whole song to myself .. Maybe I’m the one projecting and letting my obsessiveness and insecurities cause obscurities but if there’s a chance I’m wrong ... or if there’s just a chance you hear this song and wanna talk ... Maybe we should ... if it’s in our destiny to figure it out ... But if not .. at least i got this off my chest at least i got to say what i was feeling after march 1st It ain’t even that i miss you I’m good on my own Plus I’m tryna get my shit together baby we grown I ain’t tryna test the waters now i know what i know My intuition did me different tryna live by my soul